How I feel and words I normally use when describing my son's homicide a lot of cussing and raw feelings

Cici,

I think maybe you need to quit judging and quit telling people how to be and feel. Maybe you should leave others alone. Cause no one asked you to put your 2 cents in and say anything to myself or anyone who has commented on this post. We are all here for the same reason we all lost a loved one and the last thing anyone needs is a person passing judgement period… so leave Keke alone and let her speak her peace and if you don’t like it you don’t have to respond and can move on to someone else’s stuff

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Like I said in my last post… my comments aren’t meant to offend anyone. I know what kind of pain you guys are feelings. My babygirl was taking away from me when she was only 9. she was raped and tortured until she couldn’t fight anymore. So forgive me for taking to heart the choice of words you used in your post. No one deserves that. lord knows the kind of HATE I felt for the guy who did this to my baby. But the devil is constantly working on all of us. we must refrain for speaking bad upon anyone because at the end of the day we will be held accountable.

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I am not here to judge you on how to grieve either. i just know personally that wishing bad things upon others who were responsible didn’t make me feel any better because i didn’t get my baby back.

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Cici,

I send my condolences about your daughter. No mother should ever have to bury their child. That’s not life’s design. People are evil and this world is evil and I am sorry if I hurt or offended based off what has happened to your baby, but I can not help but stand by my comments about what I want to happen to this cowards that took my baby from me. I understand I will be held accountable for what I say and only one person can judge and I am prepared to meet my maker and be held accountable when my time comes. These cowards that took my son and the person or people that did this to your baby need to have the same thing done to them that they have bestowed upon us. I believe in an eye for an eye and tooth for tooth… and yes I want all murders, rapist, and bad people in this world that cause this pain on families to suffer a most horrendous pain and suffering ever… also I believe there is a special place in Hell for people like this…

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You have every right to feel that way.

It’s a shitty feeling that will never go away…il keep you and your son Kendrick in my prayers. Be safe

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Stay strong. your son is looking out for you and he just wants you to keep living your life! the best way you know how.

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I certainly don’t fault you at all for the way you express yourself— you lost your son! I pray the killers are prosecuted to the fullest extent of the law!

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Wrong!!! You seem as if you’er the one who lacks His, & understanding. Live conquers all! Don’t you dare come for me, and you don’t know ANYTHING about me! Imma pray that God delivers you from all of those demons! Amen. Be blessed!!

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I’m sure you meant Love conquers all… My Comment wasn’t me “coming for you” you took this wrong and that’s not my fault. I also didn’t say once that I know anything about your situation. I’m not here to judge anyone. I too have gone through some horrible things. we all need to pray more. I will pray for your hateful words you throw on the internet because that alone is what’s going to be held against us on the day of judgment.

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Evening all,

Sorry I haven’t posted in a while… my life has been filled with chaos some good some bad and preparing for court on March 21st. I figure it will be another postponement for what seems like the millionth time. Hard to believe it’s been almost 2 years and nothing but postponements. Just know I am here if anyone wants to talk. I may not always post, but I am always reading. Also, another tragedy stroke close to home. Someone I served in the military with was murdered today and I assume will be on the app tomorrow. So please pray for the Brundige family. For their nightmare is just beginning and my heart is broken once again. God bless.

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I’m sorry for your loss you said 2 years and nothing still how do u do it for my daughter Shay its 6 months and it feels like a lifetime I’m slowly dying somedays and other days I’m here but can’t keep up with whats going on around me

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Yes, it’s been almost 2 years and nothing. My son was murdered on May 16, 2017 and nothing but postponements. It’s hard and aggravating, but have no choice but to go on one day at a time… it’s not easy and hopefully the trial will start soon, but like I said probably another postponement and won’t schedule the trial… the Justice system is a slow process and it’s hell to relive the nightmare day in and day out. It’s not easy, but a necessary step to try to get Justice for my baby boy.

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Well, court came and gone again today. One of the 3 monsters that took My Kendrick from me was suppose to plea today and decided to changed his mind. So reset again until May 3rd … heavy hearted today.

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You’re just saying what we’re all feeling! To tell you the truth, you worded it perfectly!

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My brother was senselessly murdered for $200 of which he went to by an IPHONE. $200 fucking dollars. Im beyond livid Im damn near insane. All cause 2 broke ass motherfuckers had malicious intent to murder my baby brother who just wanted to buy a phone.He who worked to not steal he whom never sold drugs or was out to harm anyone. And since this day Sept 20, 2016 my life my world my thoughts and my heart hasnt been the same since. Im angry beyond comprehension and the devistation my heart feels consumes my existence. I WANT THEM DEAD. The lifes for the life they took. Fuck that it hurts everyday more than I can handle as I fall to pieces trying to get whole again. I feel like a hamster on a redundant wheel and it wont stop until they stop breathing. Fuck that and whomever dont like my rant. I have keep my anger contained best I could for far to long and I realize its turning me dark on the inside cause I want an eye for an eye. Both of them bitches floating on my life cause Im waiting and with the pain thats nestled in my chest know my vengeance is patient on this payback. The pain inflicted on my family the tears theyve released the seperation from this misunderstanding that I can never understand wont just go misunderstood. I promise. My baby brother death who was his fathers ONLY child is haunting me. Feeling overwhelmed as my responsibility as a sibling was to watch over him and as the elder sibling who is distraught severly behind this with knowing that I am my brothers keeper I feel obligated to this make right. Im angry as hell for sure and I know I have placed myself in harms way but I cant sleep or live with myself if I did nothing. What was done is did my brothers dead just know I went under cover to find them fuckers. I pounded the pavement from dusk to dawn and I paid whomever had information to give on they ass. All Ill say is this…they think WE dont know but stacks assured that WE do. Fuck waiting for the police who could give a fuck less to lock them up. To them my brothers murder is just another murder but for me this shit is beyond personal. Murder destroys families and the pain is unbearable so an eye for an eye is all that equates this pain fuck jail time. My baby brother was my responsibility and lord be with those who will be held accountable. I needed to vent that. 1st time Ive spoken on my rage in 2 years and Im certain I need a support group to cause Im still processing Ill never see my brother again…

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Praying for you. Read your comment. It never gets easier it just become a toleration to survive. Its been 2 years for me to and I feel ike Im still on auto pilot. I cant function as I normally did in the past as I dont even feel like myself due ti the piece of me thats missing. How do you say goodbye when no opportunity was given? This is how I feel alongside of all the whys?

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I told my boyfriend this morning that the pain is getting worse maybe because having 3 other daughters I try to be strong to support them but in my house alone I cry uncontrollably and wish dude never had a sucker attack and would have let my daughter just leave its not even a year and we see pictures of him and his ex in my heart I think she had something to do with her death as well

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Well, today marks another day of going on 2 years with no Justice for my son… another postponement :frowning: took seconds to kill my precious baby boy and almost 2 years of no Justice. May the 12th will the the anniversary of my sons birth. May 16th will make 2 years since these bastards took him from me. Court postponed until May 31st.

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DON’T YOU DARE GIVE UP! GOD DIDN’T BRING YOU THIS FAR TO LEAVE YOU NOW HUNNY!!! Trust fully in him… I know it’s hard but I’ve tried God, & know he will prevail! What God is ALREADY doing to them, will not come REMOTELY close to what the court will rule on. God is whooping them as we speak! Don’t be surprised if they pass away before you get to see them face you, and your family in court !!!

Major love & hugs going your way! We’re family… And you can hit my inbox at ANYTIME! :hugs::kissing_heart::kissing_heart::kissing_heart::kissing_heart: Prayers always going up, AND PRAYER DOES CHANGES THINGS!!! EVEN WHEN YOU CAN’T SEE IT OR FEEL IT! That’s when your faith of a mustard seed steps in. Which God said can MOVE MOUNTAINS!! JUST BELIEVE & CLAIM IT DARLING!!!

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I’m with you on that. That’s exactly how I feel about the punk that shot my son three times while sitting in his car. I don’t give a damn about him or his family. And you’re correct when you say it changes you because it does. I’m sorry for your loss as well as the others who lost a child to these no good ass bastards who weren’t raised right to start off with.

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