Well, it is 2 years as of today since those monsters took my son from me. No Justice for me son, reliving this nightmare. Just broken hearted and reliving this hell over and over is killing me…
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Well, court was once again put off until July 26th. Just speechless and upset…
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Hello it’s been a while since I got on. I hate that we are all here! Reading about all the court delays and postponement saddens me. It’s been 18 months since my JONATHAN was shot in the face and is no longer here w me:sob:
The legal system is always looking out for the killers:angry:
. He has served a whopping 32 hours in jail since he murdered my Jonathan for NO REASON:sob:. The idiot was able to pay $35k and has been walking around living his life since. With no one to report to REALLY!!! So the idiot got a lawyer and has ask to do 5 yrs in prison M.F. he murdered my Jonathan not Fkg. dog. We asked for 16 yrs knowing how the legal system looks out for the murders we know he would do 1/2 that time, the idiot did not except the offer WHY you ask because the SOB is scrared to go to prison REALLY 
So now we will be going to a sentencing what is called an open plead. No jury just the judge decides what his punishment will be. My concern is the judge she is known to give ppl rehabilitation if she know the idiot has a addition:thinking:
. Why should tax payers pay for that since he had $$$$$$ to get out he should pay for his own rehabilitation FM!!! I miss my 
Jonathan every single day he and I were best friends! He was only 26 tkg if starting a family and getting married. Loving life my life sucks now my siblings never call or reach out. I have no friends no one ever calls to check on me. I get it people move on.
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Evening… Well, as y’all know court was once again postponed until July 26th. So, it’s been over 2 years and still no justice, no nothing. Starting to have a lot of issues mentally with all of this. It’s just all to much and I have relived the day my son was taken from me over and over and it’s a never ending nightmare and the justice system just continues to drag their feet like I have stated many of times if we had money or an important job this would have already been over. So,2 years 1 month and 10 days no justice.
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Your story touched my heart. It is very sad that young ones can do such horrible things. We see so many people without love, just like 2 Timothy 1:3-5 mentions the “last days” would be. We look forward to God’s promise at Psalms 37:10,11 and we all experience an “abundance of peace” on earth.
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I totally understand how u feel ,before I got on here I was just in my shower crying because I miss my son so much ,it feel as if I can’t breath at times when I think about I will never see my baby again and the hurt and pain and the anger I feel at God, I tried for twelve years to have another child ,suffered three miscarriages, and finally I found out I was pregnant after being told I couldn’t have anymore children ! I was scared I would lose this one too,But my one and only son was born to be taken from me 22 years 10 months and 7 days later,the pain is awful… I wouldn’t wish this on anyone:cry:
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Everyday I try to hide and mask the pain that’s inside. I cry everyday still when I am alone. I don’t want to upset anyone. I miss my son so bad and my life has been hell every since. I still get Kendrick a birthday cake every year. I do a balloon release with a letter and an item attached to it for someone to find and pray that whomever finds them receives good luck from the item I attach to it and know that my son was alive and a very special young man and he is very loved. I wish everyday that I could see my son, hug him, get another kiss on my cheek and here another I love you to momma. My 2 other children have struggled with Kendrick’s murder and still do, but at the same time have managed to continue to live their lives the best they can while I feel I am stuck in life and I am not moving forward just staying dormant and working and like a zombie if you will just the same routine and nothing is changing. I have managed to have one special thing happen in my life. I got my first grandchild and he is very special for numerous reasons. Would have to tell you why in private… but my daughter gave birth to my first grand child Feb. 5, 2019 and I got to watch him being born which made it even more special. I just wish Kendrick was here to see his nephew but his middle name is after Kendrick. Kendrick’s full name is Kendrick Allen Love. My grandson’s name is Truth Kallen Reed. Kallen is Kendrick’s first initial and middle name put together so that made me smile. I love my grandson to no end. Have almost went to jail because of a male bashing my grandson because the guy is a racist piece of shit. My grandson is in many ways special to me and the fact my daughter honored my son with his name is just one of a million reasons. No one seems to understand unless you live this life of constant hurt and sorrow that the last thing you do is mess with anyone else in the family especially an innocent child. It’s heart breaking beyond belief that you lose a child, but the nerve to disrespect and mouth about my daughter and a 5 month old child just shows no one has respect for people that are living or deceased anymore. It’s a cruel sad world we live in today and to have someone constantly add insult to injury is beyond me. This world is an UGLY place.
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Another night of being mad and extremely upset and disappointed in our judicial system… They are going to cause me to have a serious mental break down or heart attack or both. so frustrated and upset…
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JUSTICE FOR KENDRICK!!! I’LL NEVER FORGET YOUR STRUGGLES, & YOUR BABY KENDRICK! You’ve bn on this website long as I have, if not longer. Congrats on your new grandchild. I’d love to hear how a new bundle of joy have changed things. I know my words probably don’t mean SQUAT!! BUT I MEAN WHAT I SAY! KEEP FIGHTING, AND BELIEVING IN JESUS! Just look back… I bet you can’t figure out how you have made it thus far!!! IT WAS NOTHING BUT JESUS! HE’S SO AWESOME!!! Inbox me beautiful! I love you, & so does Jesus!!! Don’t lose faith baby!!!
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Omgosh BEAUTIFULLY SAID U R A SWEETHEART U REALLY R IM ALONE I HAVE NO1 NO FRIENDS AND MY LOVE MY HUSBAND WAS MURDERED SHOT 6 TIMES ON MAY4TH 2018 AND ITS GOTTEN HARDER TO PIVE WITH NOT AT ALL EASIER BUT I LOVE WHAT U WROTE MUAH:kissing_heart:
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Thx hunny, & Sorry for your major loss!!! You can take some of what I typed, & apply it to your situation as well. ALSO… YOU ARE NEVER ALONE AS LONG AS I HAVE BREATH IN MY BODY!! Inbox me anytime for anything! To scream, cry, vent, or even pray. May God continue to carry you! I love you, & so does Jesus beautiful! Take it easy on yourself… & keep pushing! CHIN UP & CHEST OUT!!! 
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I lost my son dad i pray everyday Allah get me through I try to be strong for my sons some days are rough I cry I talk about him all the time I can’t put in words my pain
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Nobody can tell me how I feel it’s hard
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Sorry for your loss, & you can feel how you WANT! Release the pain, & trust in God. He always prevail!!! Prayers going up sweetie!!! Hmu if u need to vent keke.craft85@gnail.com
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I just think of my son dad often can’t believe he gone
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Hello KeKe and Allove…
I have been out of it for awhile as wouldn’t you know it, the stress of dealing with the murder of my son January 2018, while already fighting an immune disease, finally got the best of me and put me into respiratory arrest. Who says this stuff can’t kill us? Truth be told I bet many of you have experienced some kind of physical manifestation somehow of illness or pains or problems within your body due to the stress of losing your loved ones!
There is a gentleman in this thread that really took the opportunity to release a lot of anger and strong feelings and at the end said this is the first time in two or three years he’s been able to do that.
Thank goodness we have a forum where we are able to release some of this overpowering feelings of emotions, stress from the trauma we have endured.
I am slowly recovering.
Loss of oxygen to my brain has caused some memory and cognitive problems I’ve been working through.
I’m hoping to make more appearances slowly building up.
You all have my love and:heart:.
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Hello KimberBold,
Glad you are ok and back. Have missed you a lot. I haven’t been posting like normal cause I have been dealing with a lot of issues myself. I got a court date Sept 27th so we will see. Yes, the stress of everything we have and continue to endure can and will kill us all if we let it. I am still going through it more than you know and more than I express. I hope you get back on here like normal so we can chat and catch up more. Please rest and heal and know I am thinking about you and send love and prayers your way.
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Ahhh thanks Alllove!
Tomorrow…Court…
I will keep you in my heart and prayers!
What kind of hearing is it? Feel free to call me this evening if you want to talk before you go to court.
(Yes friends some times our friendships grow on this site and Allove was isolated in TN and we became friends)
Any I wish you only the best for tomorrow Dear if we don’t get a chance to talk before court.
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Evening, sorry I didn’t call KimberBold… A lot going on and was at work. Court came and gone and I can’t disclose what happened today in the open, but know that there was forward progress made today and things are going slow, but one step closer.
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I was too… Fake and phoney …
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